See to See

Maybe I'm fading, and everyone knows it
Just like I'm a ghost at the end of my rope
With my better days calling, dust in my taillights
Waking on cold nights, looking for blankets
With no one to thank but my sorry eyes

I look in the mirror, and can't quite remember
If I'm any nearer than I appear or
If I'm just a user, a moth in a sweater drawer
Eating one thing then eating more
Then dying off into the source of light

Now mama I'm trying, please believe
That everything's coming at, coming at me
And I can't see to see

It's the best that I can be, off in my sandbox
Alone with my own thoughts, firing my own shots
Firing like a blind man kicking up dirt
Down in the trenches, can't know who I've hurt
But I've got no damn shirt to lose anymore

In my last nightmare, was me who was running
From everyone's words like the tip of a gun
Pointing in anger, what can be done
But to take it a day and a day as they come
Not to worry what heaven might have in store

Now mama I'm trying, please believe
That everything's coming at, coming at me
And I can't see to see

I used to be someone asleep in my own bed
At home in my own head, well versed, well fed
Now I'm alone, just a dog in a dog bed
No one alive here to tell me that I'm not dead
No one to turn to and say goodnight

Now mama I'm trying, please believe
That everything's coming at, coming at me
And I can't see to see